The Journey Starts
I remember as a young child being in my grandmother’s house and seeing the classic “Footprints in the Sand” that so many homes had hanging during those times. That thought that Jesus was walking with me stuck with me, even though we were not an overly religious home. We believed and even attended church on the popular holidays, but it was never a focal point in my life. Even so, I always felt that someone was walking with me and guiding my life in a good way. The thought comforted me as a young man, even when I was doing some of the dumbest things you can do (we will probably get into those someday).
I had a strong sense of who I was, but didn’t feel whole. I felt like I needed more. I could feel this safe presence around me, but it was not a part of me or in me. That all changed when I found the Lord and took him as my Savior. For the first time, I felt whole and at ease.
I attended church most Sundays and heard so many times that the road would be tumultuous, and that life can seem hard even when you are walking in the light. I didn’t understand that. How can it be hard? You are walking with Jesus. Look down, there are his footprints right there in the sand.
Little did I know that the road for me was going to become so bumpy that I would question everything and even lose that feeling of who I was as a person. I would question why things were happening, what it all meant, and where the Lord was. That was so difficult to even type just now, but it is true.
The journey I have been on over the past few years has been a roadmap for finding strength even when you have none left. A journey of self-discovery. A bumpy road filled with sad moments, tears, looking for strength in the wrong places, and fear. It is a journey where I learned to look at Jesus and fix my gaze upon him.
It is a journey back to finding ME!
Join me as I retell this journey, and maybe my story can help you in your time of need. If you are going through something, know that you are not alone. Prayer does work. Look down, his footprints are right there next to you. He was with me.
Finding Me Again is a blog for people who are searching, struggling, and starting to find their way back to who they truly are. I will be posting at least once a week, but sometimes more. I pray the Lord guides this journey as I continue to work back to him.
